The dreaded question….“Are you happy?”
I want to say yes, I have a roof over my head, I’m semi-healthy when I don’t binge drink IPA’s on a Sunday Funday. And I have people who really do adore me, and I adore them. I am happy. But why do I need to tell you yes?
My path hasn’t been easy, I have been diverted many times, from dropping out of college, to failing at multiple jobs, and just plain figuring out who I am as a person. Do I have to tell you I am happy because I’ve made it out of my sloppy adolescence, that I have made it out alive? 20 year old me has now passed the baton to my middle age self and that kid has been kicked to the bench. Honestly though, 20 year old me is soo happy to be on that bench. So yes, I am happy I have made it to this point, and I am happy I get to move forward. But why do I need to tell you this?
I feel like if we don’t have those big ticket items checked off our list, it’s an automatic ‘something must be wrong.’ But why does it have to be this way? I have a man that I love, and who loves me, ok we haven’t crossed off the big three items of M/H/B, but I think I want to upgrade to a dog first? But it doesn’t mean I am not happy, because I am, truly.
I have made it to the top of my career position. I have people making 3x more than me ask for my professional opinion, because they know I am damn good at what I do. And you better believe your bottom dollar that makes me VERY happy.
I guess I just don’t get why we must exemplify how happy we are? I am fully on the Instagram game making sure that my boyfriend gets the best shot of me from whatever hike or fun art wall we found. Do you think I am happy because of this? NO, and I feel society has made us feel that we must always put on display of how happy we are, shoving it in every Dick, Tom, and Harry’s face. GUY’S LOOK I HAVING A GOOD TIME!
I guess my whole rambling point is that, reflect on what makes you happy. You don’t need to remind people that you’re happy to prove a point. Simply look back as how far you come and where you are now, and that reflection should make you smile a bit. And if it doesn’t, that’s ok, you don’t need to twist it into some form that’s acceptable, because everyone’s journey is different. If you asked me 3 years ago if I was happy my straight answer would be no, but I took that and formed it into a better life. Work on yourself, and your self-image will just improve naturally. And that’s really all that matters I guess.